Fool's Game.

The impenetrable exterior hides the snake within.
Those blue eyes stare back, 
analysing, 
calculating 
but giving nothing at all. 

False words are churned out but your actions deceive you. 
Picking apart the lies you feed me, 
I'm a puppet on a string, a pawn in your game. 

Second chances only exist because we were stupid enough not to pay attention and open our eyes the first time round. 
How could I expect anything less?

A player will keep on playing.
And 
A player never expects to be played. 

I'm drowning in questions just waiting to be answered. 
But I don't want to listen anymore. 

Excuses upon excuses, they all come pouring out. 
But I don't give a f*ck. 

I don't give a f*ck about your f*cking car, 
or your successful career
or your expensive house
or the size of your bank account. 

I couldn't give a flying f*ck. 

Why?

Because I'm not the only one who can play games. 

And this one you are playing, 
is a fool's game. 

Thursday 14 June 2018 at 14:31

Missing.

But sometimes I want to disappear.
Disappear and never be found.

Friday 10 November 2017 at 15:38

Wander.

Sometimes getting lost is all it takes to find ourselves.

at 15:20

Stargazing.

A ghost of my dreams, she haunts me.
A mysterious figure, With a closed heart.

A mere drawing on a page.
But this is just the start.

Blank eyes stare back, a fluttering heart.
Others speak to me, but she does not.

Armour. A shell, hiding the woman beneath.
Reteaching the feelings that I had forgot.

A voice so metallic but a sweet symphony.
A blue rose lies beneath a deadly warrior.

Battle scars adorning the ethereal face,
How I long to feel something real from her.

In my reverie, you come to me.
An angel of beauty.

Time slows as I catch your eye.
Sitting alone as I wonder why.

Sunday 16 July 2017 at 13:38

Abyss.

Words are mumbled across the table.
Blank eyes gaze back,
picking her apart. But getting nowhere.

A ticking time bomb, ready to explode.
It won't take long for hell to unload.

All she wants to do is hide. She wills the pain to stop.
Her mind takes her where her body cannot.

The hand encloses around her heart.
She cannot see. She cannot think. She cannot breathe.

Lying in this dark abyss, will anyone save her from what's beneath?

Wednesday 8 February 2017 at 15:12

Deception.

Do you see me how I see you?
Your blue eyes explore me but do they really see beyond the exterior?
Mine do.
The secrets unfolding dig under my skin like knives. Like needles.
My heart is the voodoo doll. You can't wait to test me out.
To see how much you can use me to your advantage.
You can't wait to untangle and devour me.
Then leave me in the gutter, violated and alone.
I wonder if i'm the only girl you do this to.
Your words caress me, they fill me with hope.
But your eyes say more. They give away your true intentions.
Now I see your true agenda.
I see through your lies, your deception.

Monday 6 February 2017 at 11:05

Misjudge.

No doubt either one of two outcomes will prevail:
I will feel foolish for believing your twisted lies
or
I will feel foolish for accusing you and misjudging

at 10:36