It is so hard to resist the temptation sometimes. It can tear you apart until you bleed. Internally. You cry out in an unbearable pain and it hurts. Above your left eye brow there is a seering pain that reminds you of all the things you should do but haven't got round to it.it hurts knowing that. Knowing that maybe for the rest of your life you will have to deal with people who think they can play with your feelings all the time. Yes I'm refering to you J. Why won't you talk tó me? After I helped you all those times.
It's wednesday and i haven't got much planned today I'm just gonna go to school and stuff. not so fun or exciting. I have PSHE first whic is totally a waste of time and i hate it. I keep wondering what would have happened if i went to college instead. Everything would have turned out so different. But, i didn't. and Here I am. at least I've done my exams now and i can relax for a while. Going into town monday was great and to be honest, it was the only think i was actually looking forward to this week. I can't wait until the weekend!! Oh, by the way, do you like the necklace? Very cute, huh? I found it on eBay. It's a celtic moon necklace that sugnifies the waxing and waning of the moon! ((:
My name is Emily. This will be where I will post all my feelings and thoughts about the world. I would deeply appreciate any of your comments also. Emily is not my REAL name if you are wondering. I want to protect my identity but I bet some will figure it out anyway.
Please keep returning to read my posts. It will mean so much to me. This blog wasn't actually intended for people to read however, (not that I am trying to get you from reading, of course you may!) I just want to be able to express my deepest feelings. nothing more. Sometimes, it feels to me that I cannot properly explain how I feel. Even if it is only for a few minutes online everyday or every couple of days. Even if nobody ever reads. I just want the emotional release. I want everything to be open now.
I'll give you some information on me: I live in England, I am very much a self-contained introvert but I'm not shy enough to not express my feelings to anyone. I'm very much an open person - which causes me some problems most of the time. (my insensitivity is infamously well-known by the girls at my school...)
But I'm a kind hearted, friendly and childish person who loves teddy bears and collecting candles.
I'm very unique and quite eccentric in the way that I have cute behaviours. (E.G. I come home from school and instantaneously put my PJ's on!)
I love the winter but I love the autumnal season better because the colours of the leaves falling to the ground from the trees looks amazing. It really relaxes me.
I study Psychology, sport, English literature and Drama and Theatre as A level qualifications. I want to go to university to study either radiography or Psychology in two years. (I can't decide which one...)
Please keep returning to read my posts. It will mean so much to me. This blog wasn't actually intended for people to read however, (not that I am trying to get you from reading, of course you may!) I just want to be able to express my deepest feelings. nothing more. Sometimes, it feels to me that I cannot properly explain how I feel. Even if it is only for a few minutes online everyday or every couple of days. Even if nobody ever reads. I just want the emotional release. I want everything to be open now.
I'll give you some information on me: I live in England, I am very much a self-contained introvert but I'm not shy enough to not express my feelings to anyone. I'm very much an open person - which causes me some problems most of the time. (my insensitivity is infamously well-known by the girls at my school...)
But I'm a kind hearted, friendly and childish person who loves teddy bears and collecting candles.
I'm very unique and quite eccentric in the way that I have cute behaviours. (E.G. I come home from school and instantaneously put my PJ's on!)
I love the winter but I love the autumnal season better because the colours of the leaves falling to the ground from the trees looks amazing. It really relaxes me.
I study Psychology, sport, English literature and Drama and Theatre as A level qualifications. I want to go to university to study either radiography or Psychology in two years. (I can't decide which one...)
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