Frozen Forever

People.
Bodies.
Everywhere.
Going nowhere.
Talking nonsense.
Doing nothing.
Maybe one familiar face
but the others distant, unknown, faded.
Didn't particularly know where I was headed but, nonetheless,
wishing I were elsewhere.
Leaping out at any old stop,
I joined a crowd of suits pushing
past me.
I stumbled down the muddied steps,
not expecting to see,
a pale blue hoodie walking in front of me.
I held my breath in disbelief,
then your name came out in a choke. 
You turned and my heart skipped a beat.
After all this time, I never thought I'd see your beautiful face again.
But you turned.
And it wasn't you.
It was the face of some randomer.
No, it was my mind tricking me into believing that it was indeed you
and that you're still around,
and that you still care for me
and that you still want me
and that you still love me.
Really, your love was just a dream.
And what we had was just a fantasy of mine.
And I was fooling myself.
Living a lie.

Blackened eyes,
Blackened heart.
Lack of judgement,
False start.

One step forward,
Two steps back.
One small promise,
veering off track.

An open mind,
A curious soul.
A bag of lies,
I knew you stole.

Sideline girls,
Waste of time.
Demanding the truth,
Pretending I'm fine.

Bloodied knuckles,
She's so ashamed.
Caught in the act,
They've now been named.

Four months gone,
She now cries in fear.
Two hearts shatter,
And so, it ends here.

“Parting is such sweet sorrow that I shall say goodnight till it be morrow”.

A small stumble was all it took
to fall to the ground.
Hopeless, I lie there in silence,
praying to be found.

Crying in agony,
for someone to save me.

Reliving the pain,
again and again.

And out of the darkness you held out your hand,
to help me to stand.
You picked up the pieces I'd left on the floor,
so I'd love once more.

My tears dry when you are here,
There is nothing more to fear.

You'd give me another try,
when most would just wonder why.

Everyday feels like the best day of my life,
when I hold your hand I can't stop the butterflies inside.
All our time together seems to fly by so fast.
I'd risk everything because I know it will last.