Frozen Forever

The storm envelopes me,
enclosing me in a cocoon of horror.
Lies. False promises. No Hope.
This mistake. Full of error.

I learnt to trust.
Put this heart on the line.
But all I got was betrayal.

And all this rage inside,
cannot be contained.
It's claws are reaching out and digging in.

And you'll find yourself lost.
At the heart of this tornado.

I went on without you.
It was for the best.
We both knew this road wouldn't last
Forever.
A ticking time bomb.
Ready to explode.
Our hearts and minds collided.
And everything fell apart.
I never thought I'd get an answer to my 'what ifs'.
Now I have it.

It felt so good to be touched by someone else.
It felt so good knowing you won't be my last.
But it feels better knowing that you're gone.
And now here I am.

Liberated.

We sit across the table,
Your eyes on mine.
They do not falter,
Those brown pools of mystery,
they intrigue me.
Searching every inch of mine,
to find something within.

Hands.
Rough and calloused.
But strong and exploring. Examining mine.
And hair as dark as the night sky.

Later
We stand.
Side by side.
Water pouring over us
as I wonder

Why you play these games.

Happy new year!

I still see you
In my dreams.
An unyielding soul, you haunt me.

Your ghost even has
those sparkling eyes,
those lips, just there to taunt me.

Bound by these chains,
unable to cut lose
And free myself from this
pain.

Moving forward,
and forgetting the past,
As I try to love again.

These nightmares still exist in your absence,
Without you here to hold me 'til they fade away.
I lie here thinking instead of dreaming,
Until I see the light of day.

Have passed since I first saw your face.